Gosh, I'm so caught up in school that I missed checking my emails for Xanga updates! In fact, I deleted them because I didn't think that I would have time for Xanga in a while. arrrg I'm really regretting this right now.
I was pretty much alone during my Academy class. Now that I think about it, I feel a little more distant from everyone now. Anyways, during Academy.. I got this weird.... look from my classmates when I asked them if I could work with them with the origami making. It bothered me because the "look" was a look that seemed to say, "Uhh I'm not sure about that... crapshe'slooking! someone else answer her!!" It kind of brought me back to my Kindergarten days when I was rejected a lot. ARRG those kids were so mean.

I'm just so tired.
- My English and Democracy classes aren't very bad but those are sometimes very disappointing to be in.
- Japanese is fun, but I think the work and the workload is way past my limit. I learned the hard way that the language, like Chinese, is not my forte.
- Math is interesting, but sometimes it gets me upset because I only understand it so much better AFTER tests. Also, sometimes I get the feeling that people pretend that they're good at the calculus stuff when they're OK at it.
- We did so many freaking events in Academy! When the heck was our last project (that didn't ride on events)?! I've been feeling left out in that class too, especially when it comes to India and Kiyomi.
- Physics.. actually, I rather like this class. But I really dislike most of my classmates. A lot of the students cheat and copy to get high grades (even though they're allowed an cheat sheet for equations), and students complain when they get low grades and blame the teacher for not clarifying things better. I don't really mind being one of the people who laughs at the blatantly obnoxious kids when they get in trouble. I think they deserve it. Mr. Mo is really tolerant and nice and everyone just takes advantage of that.
- I think the only class I am content in is Psychology. I can talk freely to more than half of the students, and the teacher. There is not much of a downside to this class as long as you make a good effort.
And then.. my family.
I feel like they put so much pressure on me to get into a good college. I don't mind which college I can get into as long as I can handle it. But noo. My sister took over my application and exaggerated and "professionalized" my words. That's OK because it still has my original stuff in it, but I'm pretty mad that she forced me to write the usual immigrant sob story with an outline that she made for the personal statement. OK, I get it! I'm first generation with a working history, jeez! I told her that I didn't want to submit it because it was cliche and a lot of colleges receive letters like those, but then my sister got really mad and told me that it wasn't cliche ( well, not in the UC system...). Then I told my parent that I just wanted to do my idea of a personal essay without interference until I want them to double check it. They told me I had to listen to my sister because she knows best....
Then I browsed around the internet and found a similar essay story from a fellow UC-bound student, and people were just telling her that it was incredibly unoriginal.
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